Sunday, July 08, 2007

My Weakness

I find myself unbelievably stuck in envy these days. I have expected myself to be much more successful then I am now. I was just reading my fellow co-writer's website on this paid website I write for and just shaking my head in pure envy as I watch at how much more page views she has and how much more money she's made. She had a 9 page article on all the thousands of dollars she's made writing online. Amazing! So let me take a moment to repent and wonder why I am feeling this way. And I go to God to prayer about it and I'm wondering what's taking so long for my book to find a publisher, and why can't I get at least one loyal reader on my blog or anywhere else and I listen to God tell me that I don't stay on track. I don't do everything He needs me to do and so I fall behind and that makes things take even longer for me. So I pray and I try to stay encouraged but I fall and I know everyone falls now and then but I just keep pressing forward. But I thank God that He does this, I thank Him that he tests me and expects the best from me because I know that one day I will be strong in Him, strong enough to reach the world for Him. So I just have to get through this...

7To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. 8Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 2nd Corinthians 12:7-9

3 comments:

karen said...

hi telika! thanks for visiting my blog. i have one beautiful daughter, who wears me out. i don't know how you take care of 4- wow!

karen said...

have you liked age 4? age 3 was rough- i'm glad for it to be over.

Esther said...

I have been old and now young yet have I not seen the righteous forsaken, or his seed begging bread. What is for you is for you! never forget that you are blessed” many are called and few are chosen” seek his face Talika. All the gifts and talents that God has given you mean a lot to you, but your heart means more to him. Seek his face! your season will come but not until God has prepared you for it.