Saturday, July 30, 2005
I am at odds right now on what to do about my job search. I am working on my struggle with patience and I believe that God has a big plan for me but the wait is mind boggling. It's not like I have a lack of faith, because I believe I have received all I have asked for, but I just would like for it to be evident soon. My husband is hounding me about a job and money is tight. I am not worried about money because I know God has always come through for us and will continue but I am getting antsy about just having something more to do with myself. I also don't know whether I should stop sending out resumes and just wait for God to send something my way. It took me 6 years to finish college. After marriage and four kids, I thought I would never get my degree. But I did it. I try and think about how far God has brought me and I wish that was all I need to make these impatient feelings disappear. But when I have them, like I do now, I pray and thank God for all I have already and all that I will have. I also try and quote scripture to battle my inner struggles with patience. Like Psalm 40:1-2 I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry. He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. Also Romans 12:12, Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. May I not let my joy be stolen today, my affliction overwhelm me or keep me from giving up my requests before God.